There seems to be a perversion of every aspect of the human condition. We've been led.to believe in the negative aspects of the homo sapiens species. There is so much thats redeeming about us that you never hear. You never hear of the greatest day to day accomplishments of each soul, only stories spinned to recieve the greatest ratings. They say live without darkness and violence is boring, and will sell you every single thing to make you believe that, as well as painting a world with peace as being one of unanimous conformify towards a singular deifiied entity. They say believe in God, but God in the flesh said to believe in yourself. Believe in where you came from. Believe in who you truly are at the core essence of your being.

That which is of love and true unfathomable purity.

"These things that I do, ye shall do also. And yet greater things shall come of you."  I never see this empowering statement being preached. I dont see it anywhere. I dont see the souls getting fed, only "saved". We've been allowed countless times to get things right against those oppress us on a worldwide scale. And yet, we lie dormant hoping the next man will do something about it. Our inaction, our silence, is the greatest weapon being used against us. Take each day as an oppurtunity to give. Even if its to give to what is unseen. The heart that is moved is the greatest.force that is known and unknown.

Do not confound yourself in attempts to understand this world. That which is not of love, is not meant to be understood.

I feel the unprecedented hatred of so many, and yet I know they cannot see Me. The actuality of myself, for they cannot see far from the cloud-minded fog they smear across their faces.

I hate it all so damm much.
All this anger and I try so hard to hide it because it feels unjustified. And running after God made me alot lonelier and enigmatic to everyone around me.

But evenso, certain events are starting to make sense now. I just want all the childish shit to end...

I heard someone say thst your life is your voice. I guess a self placed.bullet to the head is a great way to say "Fuck you and everything you stand for."

Always the cute little text messages with the bullshit fantasies and make-believe words. Feels like everything she said was just an empty lie as she was staring down the next guy's pants.

The moment when you stumble on old text messages from her.
After all the shit thats happened, it makes me not wanna believe in love. To throw away evrything I am and just be cold and silent, working on absolutely nothing. Just going through life without any thought to it whatsoever. No emotions. To sit where I need to be, do what I have to do, and die.

To just go through life as a spectator to an automaton.
I dont want to believe in anyone or anything. I just want to go and get this all over with. Just about tired of dreams hopes and wishes. Just...done. Done with everyone. Most of my social interactions result in bullshit. People love to talk but I aint got shit to say to almost any soul.

I see the ancestors of lost children crying tears of the blood shed in oppression and hatred. I see the young children selling their birthright not realizing they accepted their old slavemasters yoke once again.