The moment when you stumble on old text messages from her.
After all the shit thats happened, it makes me not wanna believe in love. To throw away evrything I am and just be cold and silent, working on absolutely nothing. Just going through life without any thought to it whatsoever. No emotions. To sit where I need to be, do what I have to do, and die.

To just go through life as a spectator to an automaton.
I dont want to believe in anyone or anything. I just want to go and get this all over with. Just about tired of dreams hopes and wishes. Just...done. Done with everyone. Most of my social interactions result in bullshit. People love to talk but I aint got shit to say to almost any soul.