People think... because she's no longer in my life, that I have an enmity towards God. People think they see my heart. They know me not. Only a mask which they attempted to place on my face. People claim I rebel against God because I see the fallacies in their wayward perceptions. I see the thoughts and prayers of men who believe Ive given up all that I am to ine adversaries.

They couldn't be further from the truth. And yet, their stumbling causes my mind to throw itself against the wall in agony as I see their terrors, fears, and presumptions. It is saddening. Forgive me if I donnot wish to wave a flag in proclamation of something that surelt isn't. My heart and I only wish to cling to that which is unobtainable, unutterable, the infinitum tonall that simply is. This isn't some new age spiritual bullshit, I don't care for the pragmatic pretenses of men who stumble after only what their eyes can see.

Your prayers mean naught. Only the tears of broken hearts and utter much more and lend such fruit to the ears of our Father. Shed tears in wailing heartfult true pain as ye bear the burdens of all men under the sun. Have ye not felt the suffering of billions in but a fortnight? And yet, ye choose to partake in the acknowledgement in that man which you do not, and will never understand? Grt the hence for your mouths are filled with putrid lies, fueled by self-justification to torture poor souls as a foothold to what only your brolen eyes can muster.

I cannot even sleep for I hear and see these broken cries of lackluster men who methodically try to see infinity in some religious order. Men who wish to fond Gos in the church, but cannot see the glimmer of our father's eyes on a midsummer's day, or under the full lit night of a thousand dancing stars. See the majesty of the infinitude hsppen before your very eyes.

Partake in the ascertainment of all that is beautoful, not with vain maysayings of that which simply isn't.
Who is the messenger, does it matter? Did you at least get thr message as ye war with one another woth banal differences which hold no worth?

Seek the eyes of He who moves Ye. For ye cannot move lest he permit thine foot to take plant upon the roots of life. Seek the heart of the greatest lover, for there is no other way to live. Seek not the face of a man,for ye shalt surely die by hellfire. Seek not a savior, for the savior is the one setting you free so you may save yourselves. Men have taken everything from you,even belief in yourselves. And the one you called savior, only wished to open your eyes to the potential stored in you...

"These things that I do, ye shall do also. And yet, greater things shall come of you.". Your savior wishes to empower you to take life by its reins.

Isnt it empowering to hear that you can do all of these things? Why do you not use your imagination and seek from the core of your essence? Men believe the laws of God are written in documents. It is written upon thine life, in your soul. We are not born out of decay you fools! And yet I still hear the tongues of you that curse me for I seem to deviate from your proliferated track of thought. Has your "god" also relieves you of your abilityto think? Do you not see all of the doible edged swords that lay in wake to taunt and confuse you? The first double edged sword was our own selfish doing. Now, lets finally relieve ourselves of these prison mindsets. A slave to Christ? I thought he set you free? And still I hear you say so much of me as if I do not cling to the words of my brother. That great prophet who was disgraced and sacrificed. Yahoshua. Even my brother speaks to me saying to seek God. Seek the source, not the messenger. And yet, men call me muslim just because I wish not to gorge myself on unrighteous foods.

All in all, I cleave to my father now, more than ever for I am in great need. Nothing can satiate me than to be drunken with Love's kiss.

(Sorry for any grammar mistakes, lets see you try writing this on a touch screen phone with big.friggin bear paws.)