First day of jury duty, drank a "bang" energy drink. Im starting to feel jittery as hell. Impatient as hell, but time is flying by. My whole denomination feels...justified? Not sure what my thoughts are. Just knowing that life is trying to throw everything I thought about myself out the window.
Not to become some religious nut, but to venture into thw fulfillment of myself. Each day a new step. Letting Him work in my favor, but I still want to just get out. To find an excuse to stel away. Even if its schooling. I want to learn, but... I don't want my supposed knowledge to cause me to not enjoy life. I don't have to be prestigious, just pave my way to do all my heart longs for.
It took love itself to fortify me. To show me that everything I thought I did so heinously wrong, wasn't so terrible to begin with. The negating insanity that occurs when a man is far from himself is beyond a disturbance to just himself. Order itself is broken on a cataclysmic wave.
The basis and source of life, infornation, harmonic thought, and such proceedings are constantly trailing me, leading me, and fulfilling me on this journey. Its interesting to see. Its always been easy. You just gotta learn to chill. Gotta learn how to think for yourself and not let menial structures torment your very essence into a remission of all that you are, in favor for a yoke and chain around thy neck.
Aside from my brain erupting into a volcanic tidal wave of thought provoking imagery, I'm feeling quite fine.
It scares me that so many people follow archtypes and stereotypes throughout their lives. I see it in people's eyes what their most innate longings truly are. Not what they wantvor desire, but what their hearts stretch forth beyond reality for.
We as individual human beings are too colorful and spread out to be labeled and archtyped. It doesnt help that our encompassing media outlets further push these mindsets and the like, on unmindful citizens.
Its difficult to simply accept all of this as such, especially as we continuously label ourselves as a progressive society. The truth is that we have degressed as we rely on such obsolete and falliable technology that doesn't even reap the full potential of harmful, and limited resources all for the sake of profit of those whom are in control of the many falsities of our livelihood.
I find it fun watching this buraeucratic dance of bullshit twirl around in my face as overpaid lawyers tout around misconstruing facts and logic to waste the time of the american people in this broken judicial system. Welp, its 2 minutes before the actual hearing, I hope they prove me wrong.
Its now 2:11, I fell asleep in my seat. Apparently, they couldn't find the defendant. Bitch, these people better take me off their list TONIGHT. Judicial system at work man.
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